I guess you're just what I needed

Sometimes, your friends can give you all the right advice, explain everything just the way you need to hear, and be able to articulate something about yourself that you hadn't been able to put into words. My Suzi did just that for me. I rarely like to go to friends with problems, unless they are major, and I have a wonderful boyfriend who is actually really good at listening and providing a lot of the insight that I need. But sometimes, he just can't fill that role.

I have noticed that as my friends grow and develop their own lives, they become more wrapped up in whatever their baggage is, and ask a lot more questions and request opinions than they are willing to reciprocate for. I try really hard to include my experiences in order to show my knowledge on the subject, but I do it in such a way that it won't take away from the topic at hand. It seems as if it goes unnoticed a lot of times, and if I try to bring up something I am confused or wondering about, the topic winds up back about the other person.

Don't get me wrong, I fancy myself a great active listener and I am always willing to help problem-solve when needed, especially the areas of love and sex (among others) as I have a lot of knowledge and experience concerning those two facets. And I definitely do draw in a lot of people who desire advice, help, and thoughts. I love helping out, really I do. But sometimes I (YES, ME) get lost as well, and need someone to pick me up. My excessive feeling of guilt and worry about being a burden often deters me from taking action and I let the problem fester until I have either resolved it, or set it away for the time being.

Even though I felt stupid and silly and immature, I wrote an extensive email to Suzi. She is by far the one who knows me best of my girl friends, even though she lives so heartbreakingly far away. We go back to Junior High, when we were both filled with rage and dark humor. I was so sad that I couldn't visit her this summer as intended, because it would have been amazing (I'm thinking Spring or early Summer next year now??? I'm not sure the cost). Anyway, after sending her the email I felt a lot better having gotten those thoughts off my chest, and continued to wonder what sort of response she'd have.

What she sent me was perfect. Exactly everything I could have wanted and more. She knows that part of my personality to a T, and it was refreshing to have her reinforce the facets of my personality. No one knows the dark side of me like she does, the part who thinks and says things no one would fathom saying out loud. It's just really, really nice to have someone who loves you unconditionally, even when you are at your worst. Thank you for being there for me, I appreciate you far more than you can imagine. <3

I guess you're just what I needed

Sometimes, your friends can give you all the right advice, explain everything just the way you need to hear, and be able to articulate something about yourself that you hadn't been able to put into words. My Suzi did just that for me. I rarely like to go to friends with problems, unless they are major, and I have a wonderful boyfriend who is actually really good at listening and providing a lot of the insight that I need. But sometimes, he just can't fill that role.

I have noticed that as my friends grow and develop their own lives, they become more wrapped up in whatever their baggage is, and ask a lot more questions and request opinions than they are willing to reciprocate for. I try really hard to include my experiences in order to show my knowledge on the subject, but I do it in such a way that it won't take away from the topic at hand. It seems as if it goes unnoticed a lot of times, and if I try to bring up something I am confused or wondering about, the topic winds up back about the other person.

Don't get me wrong, I fancy myself a great active listener and I am always willing to help problem-solve when needed, especially the areas of love and sex (among others) as I have a lot of knowledge and experience concerning those two facets. And I definitely do draw in a lot of people who desire advice, help, and thoughts. I love helping out, really I do. But sometimes I (YES, ME) get lost as well, and need someone to pick me up. My excessive feeling of guilt and worry about being a burden often deters me from taking action and I let the problem fester until I have either resolved it, or set it away for the time being.

Even though I felt stupid and silly and immature, I wrote an extensive email to Suzi. She is by far the one who knows me best of my girl friends, even though she lives so heartbreakingly far away. We go back to Junior High, when we were both filled with rage and dark humor. I was so sad that I couldn't visit her this summer as intended, because it would have been amazing (I'm thinking Spring or early Summer next year now??? I'm not sure the cost). Anyway, after sending her the email I felt a lot better having gotten those thoughts off my chest, and continued to wonder what sort of response she'd have.

What she sent me was perfect. Exactly everything I could have wanted and more. She knows that part of my personality to a T, and it was refreshing to have her reinforce the facets of my personality. No one knows the dark side of me like she does, the part who thinks and says things no one would fathom saying out loud. It's just really, really nice to have someone who loves you unconditionally, even when you are at your worst. Thank you for being there for me, I appreciate you far more than you can imagine. <3