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Body problems and work
Jan. 9th, 2018 02:13 pmI came back to school feeling a lot calmer overall. I feel like my tolerance level has been reset and I am comfortable with the students and my relationships. HOWEVER, I am also experiencing a bout of depression. My functioning has been decreasing, and Steve's been pointing out my lack of interest in things, my inability to complete tasks, and general "would rather be sleeping" attitude.
Not this past Sunday but the one before it, I started to experience some pretty intense pain in my right knee. I had noticed some discomfort earlier but didn't think much of it until I tried to play ITG. Of course, I got through 3 very painful songs and knew something was actually wrong. I took some meds and a couple days later bought a brace for my knee, which has helped, but only during the time I'm wearing it. And I can't wear it ALL the time because it starts to hurt the back of my knee after awhile. When I walk and pivot or turn, it feels like the kneecap is shifting and it frequently makes an audible clicking noise. It burns in a strip from my thigh to my shin all the time, and if it's straight it feels like I'm hyperextending somehow, and if it's bent it feels tight and hot.
I went in to the doctor after my vitamin results came back - my B12 is so low that Winegardner has basically declared my body in a state of emergency (she literally turned the computer towards me and said "DID YOU SEE THIS NUMBER?!") and demanded I start shots immediately. So I got one yesterday and have to go in today and tomorrow for sure, and possibly Thursday. My zinc is also inexplicably lower than BEFORE I started zinc supplements??? How???? I was pretty happy about my histamine levels, which reduced to 900-something from 1500-something (which is very high), but she said that's still too much. I'm gonna get an X-ray on my knee tomorrow. I was going to do it yesterday but when she asked if I was pregnant and I said I didn't think so, she made me get a pregnancy test to be sure - I really didn't know! I've had 2 periods since May; it's been over 100 days since I've bled! I use my diaphragm every time but how am I supposed to know if it's working well??
So. I've had to stop kickboxing for now until we figure out what the hell is wrong with my knee. I was so embarrassed when she was trying to test for pain spots on my knee, and she propped my leg up on her bent knee. My leg is seriously the size of her whole body!! It looked like a tree trunk compared to her. And I have fat legs AND fat knees (which I feel like isn't actually that common) so they're hard to manage. The brace I mentioned? I had to order an XL from a "heavy weightlifting" place because the Walgreens ones were too small ;A; Generally speaking, I'm not embarrassed about having fat legs compared to the rest of my body because I get so much positive affirmation from the men in my life, but this has been awful!
So I have an extended work meeting today from 2:15 to 5:00pm and then my appointment at 7:20. Tomorrow I have my shot at like 4:30 and my X-ray at 6... woo.
My sub for yesterday wrote, "seems like a good thing going on here." LOLLLL I mean, honestly I was thinking the same thing when I was writing up the sub plans - Tealie was in charge first block so I didn't really need to write anything for that block, students are working independently in block 2, and my kiddos at Nokomis know exactly what's expected of them so working with them is a breeze.
Not this past Sunday but the one before it, I started to experience some pretty intense pain in my right knee. I had noticed some discomfort earlier but didn't think much of it until I tried to play ITG. Of course, I got through 3 very painful songs and knew something was actually wrong. I took some meds and a couple days later bought a brace for my knee, which has helped, but only during the time I'm wearing it. And I can't wear it ALL the time because it starts to hurt the back of my knee after awhile. When I walk and pivot or turn, it feels like the kneecap is shifting and it frequently makes an audible clicking noise. It burns in a strip from my thigh to my shin all the time, and if it's straight it feels like I'm hyperextending somehow, and if it's bent it feels tight and hot.
I went in to the doctor after my vitamin results came back - my B12 is so low that Winegardner has basically declared my body in a state of emergency (she literally turned the computer towards me and said "DID YOU SEE THIS NUMBER?!") and demanded I start shots immediately. So I got one yesterday and have to go in today and tomorrow for sure, and possibly Thursday. My zinc is also inexplicably lower than BEFORE I started zinc supplements??? How???? I was pretty happy about my histamine levels, which reduced to 900-something from 1500-something (which is very high), but she said that's still too much. I'm gonna get an X-ray on my knee tomorrow. I was going to do it yesterday but when she asked if I was pregnant and I said I didn't think so, she made me get a pregnancy test to be sure - I really didn't know! I've had 2 periods since May; it's been over 100 days since I've bled! I use my diaphragm every time but how am I supposed to know if it's working well??
So. I've had to stop kickboxing for now until we figure out what the hell is wrong with my knee. I was so embarrassed when she was trying to test for pain spots on my knee, and she propped my leg up on her bent knee. My leg is seriously the size of her whole body!! It looked like a tree trunk compared to her. And I have fat legs AND fat knees (which I feel like isn't actually that common) so they're hard to manage. The brace I mentioned? I had to order an XL from a "heavy weightlifting" place because the Walgreens ones were too small ;A; Generally speaking, I'm not embarrassed about having fat legs compared to the rest of my body because I get so much positive affirmation from the men in my life, but this has been awful!
So I have an extended work meeting today from 2:15 to 5:00pm and then my appointment at 7:20. Tomorrow I have my shot at like 4:30 and my X-ray at 6... woo.
My sub for yesterday wrote, "seems like a good thing going on here." LOLLLL I mean, honestly I was thinking the same thing when I was writing up the sub plans - Tealie was in charge first block so I didn't really need to write anything for that block, students are working independently in block 2, and my kiddos at Nokomis know exactly what's expected of them so working with them is a breeze.
