I wrote a long missive about this, but decided to wait and see about posting it. Very personal. But suffice it to say I have experienced and dealt with psychosexual issues, healthy and otherwise, in myself and others. Gender/preference orientation is not very plastic, but many actual damages and dysfunctions can be, at least in some people.. In others, well, not so much.
I beat a psychosexual drug/sex tie-in addiction from hell, the last few years. Mostly. Still miss the marathon sex.. Or, any sex at all, lately. The meth can go to hell though. That was several years and several grand I'll never get back. The 24-hour marathon sex was the best EVAR, tho. But, I guess I need to begin reflecting on how rich in experience, if not money, my life has been. I've lived a dozen lives, been a total outcast (my name was a curse-word, for a time) a minor local celebrity an video art mentor, operated a government supercomputer, invented and played my own musical and video instruments as well as damn near anything with strings or keys on it, gained, lost, and regained a 3 1/2 to 4 octave voice range with expressive variation, politely insulted the most powerful (at the time) man on earth and he hook my hand before and after (Bush the Elder), partied (and worked with, and jammed) with rock stars, drank with a federal judge (at about 10 years old), at least once used telekinesis and many many times had clairvoyance, had my art and writing published in a 5,000 circulation wordlwide-circulated magazine a few times, helped redesign the 5th-most powerful pumpkin-cannon in the country, stood naked on a bucket at a party and took 3 foot long electric sparks into my hand, and passed part of that through my other hand to make a spark between my girl's hand and mine (after repairing that device for its owners), survived a half-dozen or so potentially lethal car wrecks with only whiplash one time, been gifted tens of thousands of dollars worth of video gear by my wonderful scary cool crazy-ass art mentor and many others, ridden in tens of millions of dollars worth of exotic cars,... ... Maybe I need to appreciate more what I've had and less what I feel I'm missing.
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Date: 2011-01-03 02:42 pm (UTC)I beat a psychosexual drug/sex tie-in addiction from hell, the last few years. Mostly. Still miss the marathon sex.. Or, any sex at all, lately. The meth can go to hell though. That was several years and several grand I'll never get back. The 24-hour marathon sex was the best EVAR, tho. But, I guess I need to begin reflecting on how rich in experience, if not money, my life has been. I've lived a dozen lives, been a total outcast (my name was a curse-word, for a time) a minor local celebrity an video art mentor, operated a government supercomputer, invented and played my own musical and video instruments as well as damn near anything with strings or keys on it, gained, lost, and regained a 3 1/2 to 4 octave voice range with expressive variation, politely insulted the most powerful (at the time) man on earth and he hook my hand before and after (Bush the Elder), partied (and worked with, and jammed) with rock stars, drank with a federal judge (at about 10 years old), at least once used telekinesis and many many times had clairvoyance, had my art and writing published in a 5,000 circulation wordlwide-circulated magazine a few times, helped redesign the 5th-most powerful pumpkin-cannon in the country, stood naked on a bucket at a party and took 3 foot long electric sparks into my hand, and passed part of that through my other hand to make a spark between my girl's hand and mine (after repairing that device for its owners), survived a half-dozen or so potentially lethal car wrecks with only whiplash one time, been gifted tens of thousands of dollars worth of video gear by my wonderful scary cool crazy-ass art mentor and many others, ridden in tens of millions of dollars worth of exotic cars,... ... Maybe I need to appreciate more what I've had and less what I feel I'm missing.