I know - I totally WOULD film him if he was more predictable. EVERY TIME I get the camera out, he's already done being cute XD
I'm much better mood-wise than even the last couple weeks, especially knowing the surgery (and hopefully all this heartache) is over. I've always had depression for a reason too, but it still wants to manifest in similar ways to Allie. When I worked one day a week I'd experience similar situations to her - she just sits at home all day and broods, it's bound to bring you down after awhile.
I don't think ANYONE I know would call me depressive. I hide it very well to everyone but Steve, who obviously sees me at my worst when I'm isolating (to others, via text, it's ridiculously easy to make up excuses).
When I've had things to talk about, therapy was VERY helpful. I've had two wonderful therapists, and one shitty therapist. Right now I don't know what to talk about, and like you, I'm VERY self-aware. But I don't really have anything to work through, unless you can tell me how to not be stressed or I just spend the whole hour processing work, lol. Otherwise, I don't have the constant turmoil I experienced a couple years ago (with the rape and my family and such).
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Date: 2011-11-02 08:40 pm (UTC)I'm much better mood-wise than even the last couple weeks, especially knowing the surgery (and hopefully all this heartache) is over. I've always had depression for a reason too, but it still wants to manifest in similar ways to Allie. When I worked one day a week I'd experience similar situations to her - she just sits at home all day and broods, it's bound to bring you down after awhile.
I don't think ANYONE I know would call me depressive. I hide it very well to everyone but Steve, who obviously sees me at my worst when I'm isolating (to others, via text, it's ridiculously easy to make up excuses).
When I've had things to talk about, therapy was VERY helpful. I've had two wonderful therapists, and one shitty therapist. Right now I don't know what to talk about, and like you, I'm VERY self-aware. But I don't really have anything to work through, unless you can tell me how to not be stressed or I just spend the whole hour processing work, lol. Otherwise, I don't have the constant turmoil I experienced a couple years ago (with the rape and my family and such).
I will post pics!