spritechan: (P4 Rise Persona Embrace)
I have been on this odd sick path of ups and downs since Halloween. I was very sick for a week around Halloween, then got a bit better save for a lingering cough and stuffy nose. Then after Thanksgiving I repeated the cycle, only worse.

I've missed 5 days of school in the last two weeks D:

I went to the doctor, finally. I was wearing a mask and the lights were too bright. I pulled my hood over my head and looked like a sith lord.

My doctor asked, "Are you managing your work-life balance better?"

"....not really..." Sheepishly, through my mask.

The doctor sent me on my way with antibiotics and a steroid, a note to stay home one more day, and a stern look.

Nero meows disapprovingly when I cough.

The meds are kicking in somewhat... I feel loopy and lightheaded and headachey from coughing and my nose still requires Afrin so I can breathe, but I haven't felt aches or chills in 15 hours or so. Steve said it would be interesting if we had documented how much I have slept in the last week.

Yesterday I could have cried thinking about all the responsibilities I'm behind on due to this inconvenient sickness. Today I acknowledge the challenge and feel like there's hope. I'm just going to do what I can to manage, and it will be okay.

I've been inspired to begin yoga again once I'm well. I want to take care of myself better. I don't want to give in to being overwhelmed with work.

I want to manage my food better. While being sick, I haven't had much of an appetite, nor motivation to eat, so most of my diet has been chips and bread. Thinking about food was incredibly overwhelming and I couldn't even identify what I ate when I was eating well. I'm going to work on fixing that over the coming weeks.

It's like I'm starting to rise from the ashes of my former self, to put it dramatically. But I have never, in my entire life, been sick like this or for this long. I had mono when I was a child, and that's the closest comparison I have. I'm hoping this motivation and momentum continue. I just really need to stay organized and not let life bring me down. I need to be healthy first, mind you, but I am definitely working on it.
spritechan: (School Days - Katsura Knit)
My weekend was kind of a blur, mostly because I was deathly ill on Saturday.

Friday I was NOT IN THE MOOD for anything work because I was achey and my throat hurt. It was awesome then that only one of the four babies was present in the latter half of the day. But in the first half I had to continue working with the preschoolers on a dance myself and another teacher are preparing for the Spring Program, which entailed a lot of dancing and movement and was simply not cool. One of the parents of a baby let slip that one of the toddlers had bronchitis over the previous weekend (and said child had been coughing into my face all week), and I didn't know bronchitis was contagious. Now, I'm probably being a baby and don't have bronchitis since I have not been incubating a cold for a week or more or anything, but I've had a stuffy head, been feverish, severely aching and experiencing deep painful coughs that have contributed to a very unhappy throat. I've basically been overloading with DayQuil, Mucinex, Naproxen, and Emergen-C in an effort to rid myself of this BS as I am a giant crybaby when I'm sick and I hate going to work when sick. It seems to be relatively paying off, as my aches (the WORST for me, completely put me out of commission whenever I get them) have mostly subsided. The rest is manageable and I also bought cough drops, woo! But as a result, I lost the vast majority of my weekend to sleep/rolling around the bed/hobbling to various house locations pitifully, which was very disappointing as the weather was nice this weekend (in the 60's, where it's been in the 40's for the past week and will resume said crap this week). I was really motivated to get out and go running too!

I finished a Kindle book I recently purchased - 168 Hours: You Have More Time Than You Think. I purchased it when reading through a blog in which the woman was going through a job slump and she happened to mention keeping track of her time and trying to figure out how to make more time for herself in order to work on her core competencies and feel good about what she does. The book is pretty interesting and I enjoyed it a lot. I really liked how she continuously reiterated the need to hone your skills and focus on what you're good at. A large part references families, but it's easy to apply to my own life as well. It's made me very excited to attend the informational meeting about graduate programs tomorrow. I also watched a documentary on the failing public school system on Netflix (Waiting for Superman, if you're interested), a really interesting documentary on being open-minded and taking a severely autistic (though high-functioning) boy to shamans to see if there's any way to help him (The Horse Boy), one on the Scrabble tournament in 2004, and a really cheesy one about quantum physics that actually presented some unique information that has made me want to project a more positive outlook on myself. Yeah, so I guess I knocked off a bunch of Netflix queue stuff, but didn't do anything I really wanted to.

Oh, I DID knit a quick scarf with some lovely new yarn
as seen here: )

Oh, and as long as I'm adding pics... )

Jenny, the woman who started dying my bangs, did awesome at letting the black mix with the pink and since I've stopped going to her (the drive is just so damn FAR), I've tried my damnedest to keep the look going. I think I do a pretty good job, and is very cheap - I paid $14 for the "demi-permanent" pink dye, and am getting many uses out of it. Versus $20-$40 a pop when going to Jenny, plus tip and gas both ways.

On Friday Steve and I spent the afternoon texting in Haiku. It was awesome and adorable and omg I love our relationship.

Pat broke up with Faith on Friday AT OUR HOUSE OVER THE PHONE and got back together with her today, which everyone in the friends group disagrees with and he will be receiving very deep glares from me over the next week.
spritechan: (Grim it's been a long day)
On Valentine's day, I came down with the flu or something (seriously, V-day, while not taken very seriously by us, seems to be doomed - last year was when Grimmy blocked for the 2nd time and the year before that we were working) after we went shopping. I spent all afternoon and night super sick (aches and tummy hurts mostly), and got even worse progressively over the next day. I don't get *really* sick often, and I like to think I get over things quickly. So I was not pleased when I was not any better by the evening. I have been able to keep the smallest things down (such as an Archer farms fruit strip, a few wheat thins, some Sprite to calm tummy, and a small bowl of miso broth), but that's all I've eaten since the 14th (before I got actually sick all I had was a Yakisoba ramen thing... doesn't really add much nutritionally). It's very frustrating finding food as comfort and being unable to eat it. I had a bowl of cereal like an idiot yesterday morning and threw that all up like an hour later (luckily the almond milk covered all the stomachy nastiness). I thought of Athena laying in bed for weeks and how incredibly BORED I was after only 24 hours stuck there. I couldn't even watch anything on Netflix because the sound hurt my ears. D: Light and sound were def my enemy. By the time Steve came home I was running a fever, the aches were even worse, and my skin did NOT want anything touching it. I also FINALLY created diarrhea (my body does not do this often and my tummy spent all day churning about working on it) and have been dealing with that ever since. I broke my fever late into the night, waking up in a puddle of sweat and feeling so damn hot! I spent the rest of the night getting up every so often to visit the good ol' bathroom.

Right now my body is just sore and a little achy, but I think my temp's good. Still not able to eat anything, which suuuucks. Drinking anything doesn't help much either. :( Scott's birthday shenanigans are tonight, and Steve kindly wrote me a part where Scott can just call me as I will likely be unable to participate. Regardless of my wellness level, I need a safe bathroom just in case! Steve spent most of yesterday at his parents' house with Pat planning Scott's birthday theme. I feel like I haven't seen him in forever! We did get to discuss that Pat was trying his best to make sure Scott's birthday didn't get any planning, and that his trump attempt was telling Steve, "A good boyfriend would stay home and tend to his sick girlfriend!" I found it funny and asked how he responded. He said something about how our relationship is more mature than that and that there was nothing he could do for me (there really wasn't, I would have felt more miserable and guilty if he'd stayed home since all I was doing was laying there/sleeping). AND about how I'm a good girlfriend and understand that he has responsibilities and doesn't care about me any less. He also had a terrible day yesterday at work but still managed to check in periodically. Pat was cute and stopped by with a small balloon and a get-well card, which I'll post soon because it was funny.

I'm starting to feel woozy again so I'm gonna get off now.
spritechan: (Higurashi - Rena gonna kill you)
Y hallo thar UTI/bladder infection! Long time no see! Since August, is it? I appreciate you waiting until the holidays to resurface.

Yesterday I had a mild symptom of burning once after I peed, but at 4am when I woke up with OMGMUSTPEENOWWW urges and then the subsequent NOT sleeping, I knew I was in hell again. I actually called in to work and asked people to help with my appointments because there was no way in HELL I could leave my bed. I had a RAGING headache all day (it is currently gently throbbing, reminding me that it still exists) and I've been really nauseated, even WITHOUT the pyridium (which is a lifesaver and I will withstand all the nausea/vomiting ever to take it).

I called the doctor immediately at 8am, tried to weasel a prescription without a visit, but this clinic doesn't work like that, so even though I KNOW I'm mo' fuckin' sick, I have to pay for an office visit and a lab (at least at my old clinic if they were being jerks about needing proof I could just breeze in for a pee cup and wait for the results). The appointment guy tried to tell me I had to wait until tomorrow for my primary doctor, but he changed his mind after I put on my Do Not Fuck With Me tone. I dragged my sorry ass out of bed with messy hair and ALL the scrub clothes and pathetically drove to the doctor, wishing I didn't have to drive because it only made my nausea and headache worse.

So I had to sit through the questions and other crap. When I peed I noticed what I guessed was tissue? in the cup. I worried that I may have contaminated the specimen, but I couldn't see how shooting pee into a cup after thoroughly cleansing the area first could lead to THAT MUCH residue. When I get UTIs my smell gets sharper, I appear to discharge from my urethra itself, but rarely is there blood. This weird string in my cup was frightening. It turned out apparently to be "White Blood Cell clumps". Isn't that just nasty? And I have so many WBCs that they manifest visibly?! Blehhh. THe doctor made me feel better when she said I probably knew more than she did about bladder infections and UTIs and sent me on my way with a script right quick.

I spent the whole day laying in bed, sleeping off and on. I slept to avoid the pain and my headache, but the sleeping only spurred the headache on because I didn't need more sleep. Vicious cycle is vicious.

Steve is out shopping for me, so I've had the kitties to keep me company. He's bringing me Chipotle later. I didn't want to eat today because I don't want to throw it up, but the medication has to be taken with food. So I had some thick soup and a couple of pieces of bread earlier. It was good.

Le woe

Mar. 24th, 2011 04:10 am
spritechan: (Grim it's been a long day)
Last night was not cool. Steve and I were playing WoW, and I noticed the pressure on my bladder/urge to pee was higher than it should have been for the amount of liquids I'm consuming. When I went before we went to bed, it huuuuurt. Oh my god. I've actually been REALLY good for almost a year, with only a few scares but nothing resulting in a full-blown UTI. It was the first time in FOREVER!!! And I don't know what I did wrong! I haven't been drinking sodas or erny dranks, and I'm drinking a lot of water! I also follow all the other protocol etc etc that was never really the issue. So whyyyyy?! I forced myself to fall asleep, but I ended up spending the latter half of the night in the bathroom, either stuck on the toilet or curled up on the floor of the bathroom. It was so bad that I even took some Pyridium in hopes that it would at least relieve that horrible, painful pressure. I tried valiantly not to vomit it back up, but in the end I was the loser. My stomach really hates it, and I know I probably shouldn't be putting things in my body that are rejected 95% of the time... but if I can keep it down long enough, it really does work. My pee is a fun bright orange! And.. uh... so was my puke. >_< I finally got back to bed a little after 9pm (Steve gets up at 10, and I sleep after he leaves from 11-11:20pm), and I was not better per se, but at least I could get a little sleep. When I got up I wasn't in crippling pain anymore, and I've been able to function with just a dull throb/burning, even after peeing. I'm probably going to fill the extra prescription my doctor gave me - I've been saving it for a real emergency, like this.

Grim was adorable and kept me company the whole time, because we're kindred spirits and both have urethra issues. It was fate! Poor us, seriously. When I crawled back into bed, Steve was cute, mumbling in his sleep and pulling me close. Later, when I told him what actually happened last night (he's a deep sleeper), he was like, "Aww! If I was more awake I would have held your hair back for you!" hehe. Ah, romance.
spritechan: (Lost - Hurley list on arm for Jack)
Hello LJ land. I am still sick, only not exactly. My throat no longer hurts and most of my nasal congestion is gone, but it's like... hiding or laying in wait, looking for the perfect opportunity to pounce again!

That and I got Steve sick, which is inevitable. He contracts everything. I have been home 19 hours, and we have slept for 13, getting up for a few hours to eat Panera soup and purchase Netflix (squeeee!). We are a couple of sad pandas!!

Also, new bento for me! It's much more my size and so cute!

This way! )


Sep. 29th, 2010 05:36 am
spritechan: (Lost - Made with Jears)
I'm sick today. Or getting sick. I don't know the difference. I rarely ever get "sick." I will maybe have twice a winter where I get the aches and I stay in bed for a day and I'm fine. I'm incredibly susceptible to strep and I've already had mono, but otherwise I'm quite a healthy person.

Consequently when I DO get sick I throw Q's all over the place. I didn't feel like shit until Steve was getting ready for work at 11pm. I started feeling like I was running a fever sometime between 1 and 2am. Though I wasn't; I almost never am. It's like instead of getting hotter, most of my body cools down except for my head and neck, which then in comparison feel really hot. Alas, I'm always a normal temp. My head feels like a balloon. And my ears hurt. and my nose feels like a giant bruise. and my sinuses and teeth and throat hurt too. QQ, QQ.

And unlike most other days, I CAN'T just sleep and let my fast-acting immune system work its magic. I must attend school. Not only does the professor bitch frown upon ANY SORT of absence, be it the whole time or 10 minutes, she expressly states in the syllabus not to miss THIS specific class. Because we have guest speakers. Thank god I can whine to myself while listening to some other person talk besides her.
Which reminds me, I need to quit my crying and do my homework. I don't waaaaannaaaaa! I wanna sit here and stare at my Japanese and sulk. And when I get home I'm probably going to want to crash instead of finishing any homework, so... I better get to it!

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